open your eyes and forget
clink of disorganized pennies
I know I was here before
know I’ve seen this sunshine over summer-grass,
(it’s still winter)
but won’t be forever
this windowpane overlooking
paint-peeled railings
which really should have been sanded first
and, god, that wind
where’s my jacket?
(in the car)
see how they’re all ordered,
the nickels and the dimes?
so they don’t roll all around, you see
a glass of wine, please;
where are your pills?
what pills?
there, they must be in your purse
unhook gold-gleaming clasp:
see all my change?
the boys have been into this, I know it
just wait till I get home
those boys upstairs,
and now the oldest’s got a girl,
and they stay up there for hours…
aren’t they married?
pause
yes, in the church, yes
(the pills?…)
what?
look, there, all the pennies lined up
god, it’s cold.
another glass please
aren’t we going?
swear I’ve seen this place before
near the water, aren’t we?
seen this sun falling
on these same summer blades
as the wind momentarily ceases
close eyes and feel warmth
behind eyelids
without remembering once
aren’t we going?
(yes)
home, sleep,
(yes)
I sleep long.